Disappointment

A few things were hard about this weekend. First off, it seemed as if some hard core things happened to people around me: death of a pet, breakup, Grandma in the hospital. I can't understand the loss of a pet because I've never really experienced that not having a personal pet. It's hard for me when the breakup is hours from me and I can't be there to comfort her. No one can get underneath a guy's thought process or reasons for backing out, but I can recognize that some guys have the ability to love and follow through with their intentions and others don't. There is disappointment there, that someone can say and do so many wonderful things, but is unable to consider the other person while sorting through a rough time.

My personal disappointment this weekend comes from some friends. I'm not upset and won't hold a grudge, but having people over this weekend could have looked a lot differently. It's one thing to hang out and have drinks, maybe getting a little drunk over the course of the night. But to show up already in that state, forcing the sober people to then watch over you or to leave early is a bummer. It wasn't just a random party. It was a birthday party, meant for showing the host that you like being their friend and want to say hey. The party wasn't about me hearing how much people love me, but it also shouldn't have been like any other parties that go on every weekend.

I was hoping it'd be a nice break for people to refrain from that. I thought it'd be nice to take it easy and those people who did seemed to have a better time. Hanging out at my house isn't tailored for crazy parties, it's a perfect atmosphere for relaxing and relating with people. It's like that even when it's just my roommates. Not even for hanging out with new people, but those people you hang out with all the time anyway. I believe you don't need to be intoxicated to have fun. I find it hard to believe that some people think that's even possible at this point. I'm not trying to judge here because I received apologies, but the general idea of good clean fun seems to be unattainable sometimes in this world.