Unda Pressure

I'll start by saying that Life Is Good. I know this and believe it even though things aren't always easy.

A lot of me feeling pressured is my own doing, but it's who I am. I'm pressured at work to not mess up and make a great impression. I'm pressured with living up to my mentor-like status with my brilliant small group girls on Tuesdays. I'm pressured with thinking about the dating scene and where I fit into that, how I should conduct myself and read people properly.

I feel obligated to everything and always think I have to prove myself or I'll be considered a failure. I'm thankful for the friends and family around me who are constantly reminding me that I'm doing a great job. If you didn't know, words of affirmation is my primary love language so anything that I hear keeps me going. I definitely don't do anything for the sake of praise or appreciation, but I honestly push myself for approval. I have a service mentality which connects me with God's purposes but also drives me away when I get overwhelmed.

The message that God is already pleased with me is astounding and I pray I can retain that as I move forward into a brutal, demanding, beautiful world.